I feel Obliged to make a blogger post.

I duno why i neglect this thing so much, i guess its because i don't really like writing. It probably comes off to other people that i don't have an opinion or don't care about the various stuff were supposed to be writing about but thats not entirely true.
I've been reflecting on the past year and a half this afternoon and thinking about what i've achieved as an artist. I came to game art with .. some enthuisasm but skeptical on how this degree will actually help me in any way to earn a living. I learn't about the good possibility of getting a job in the game industry wich we all hope for and how enjoyable this would be, i was pretty glad i took the opportunity and gave up everything to come here.
I started off pretty well, learnt 3dsmax pretty rapidly and banged out some models, also my neglected 2d skill started to return i even felt like i was improving, learning to apply my skill properly was something that a school art environment never tought me.
The first year had its ups an downs but i felt i did pretty good in the end. I know im not like Teh Best Evar, but im good enough and thats fine with me.
Underlining this optimism i kept getting a nagging feeling that a job in the games industry will be a lot harder to achieve than we were initially told, but no matter i'll just try even harder.. or NOT
For some reason i fell way behind in the second year, i always seem to start out okay then make some sort of mistake and end up playing catch up the rest of the year, i think i was just lazy although at the time it felt like i just couldn't make my hands work when trying to draw, i guess i just lost the excitment of doing it and my creativity suffered.
Then i got like an F in one of the assesments and got threatened that i would have to leave the course..
UH-OHs. It felt like i was just crap at the course and there was no chance of me getting a job. But what could i do? i wasn't going to quit now and work at morrisons thats just not me, so i decided to stick at it, I still don't understand why i got an F in my 3d work as it was the same quality as some other peoples D/C grades, i never liked that old 3d teacher dude. never mind, water under the bridge and all that, it was time to improve somehow.
I got to modelling and caught up with my 3d. i also attended (most) of the 2d classes and got to drawing, i lacked a tablet thing but i was able to borrow one and got some photoshops out.
few weeks later and we started our group project wich was awesome. I was givin a clear outline of what to do and got on with it.
I feel i have achieved quite a bit, i'm a competent modeller and if you think im crap you just haven't seen enough of my work, i learn't lots more 2d when sketching i actually feel the benifit of the life drawing, my anatomy has improved tenfold. My photoshop skill was non existant last year, and now i can make some nice shiny pieces, my colour-blindness can get in the way but i like being a left handed, colour-blind artist.

I think im sorta safe and won't be booted out of the course.. i have this habit of not knowing about big pieces of work i was supposed to do and i hope nothing like that's gonna creep up on me but i think im okay.
If i was truly in danger of a fail then micheal powell should of said SOMETHING, they were all RWAAR DEFFO GONNA FAIL, now none of the course leaders seem to remember any of that and just ignore me and my work even in the presentation micheal powell just wrote stuff in his book and missed all my good pieces of work while chris went to get coffee, i just took it as im safe and what im doing is enough to pass the year. I worked hard to catch up and now i can finally draw becasue i want to and have FUN doing it.. HOORAY

Uh oh time to go my food is ready cant fix spelling mistakes or proof read this, i miss having food cooked FOR YOU haha amazing, anyway HERE YOU GO I WROTE SOMETHING THORN IN MY SIDE BLOGGER.

i was bored

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